july
God made me a certain way right?
And he made me that way on purpose, right?
So that means that the desires I have deep inside me are for a reason, right?
So it isn't wrong for me to want to be loved,
Or want people to really understand me,
Or need companionship or company.
Right?
And all these longings in my heart,
All this unrequited love,
Loneliness, dissatisfaction,
It's alright?
It can't be wrong to want what you're made to have, right?
So if God made me a human, a human who needs relationship,
Then I suppose it makes sense that I'm always left wanting just a little more.
Then I need Him, right?
But it's hard to feel loved by someone you can't see or touch or talk to in a real way. Or hug.
It's hard.
Maybe that's why God gave us other people.
Maybe he knew that we would need something else to keep us going.
You know, for the times when we couldn't live on some sort of ethereal relationship alone.
Is that wrong?
I've been taught my whole life that God should be enough for me.
But I don't feel it.
If he was enough then why would he make me to require other things?
And why am I always left lacking the things I require?
And he made me that way on purpose, right?
So that means that the desires I have deep inside me are for a reason, right?
So it isn't wrong for me to want to be loved,
Or want people to really understand me,
Or need companionship or company.
Right?
And all these longings in my heart,
All this unrequited love,
Loneliness, dissatisfaction,
It's alright?
It can't be wrong to want what you're made to have, right?
So if God made me a human, a human who needs relationship,
Then I suppose it makes sense that I'm always left wanting just a little more.
Then I need Him, right?
But it's hard to feel loved by someone you can't see or touch or talk to in a real way. Or hug.
It's hard.
Maybe that's why God gave us other people.
Maybe he knew that we would need something else to keep us going.
You know, for the times when we couldn't live on some sort of ethereal relationship alone.
Is that wrong?
I've been taught my whole life that God should be enough for me.
But I don't feel it.
If he was enough then why would he make me to require other things?
And why am I always left lacking the things I require?
7:23 p.m.
Well, I'm not convinced that all of our longings are necessarily good or meant to be fulfilled, but I think this is one of the good ones. That is, I think the thing you're longing for is a good thing, something you are meant to have.
Actually, I've recently become convinced that God alone can never (and was never meant to) satisfy us. At least, most of us.
here's my prooftext. top